Title: In Dreams
Series: Ouran High School Host Club
Warnings: Implied shounen-ai, angst
Notes: A ficlet for30_kisses
theme #6: The space between dream and reality.(Crossposted in appropriate places)
There is a space between waking and sleeping; a hazy place where the ghosts of dreams linger. It is a place the sharp pain of the waking world cannot touch, and it is here that I am haunted by memories of you. Here I can drown in the sound of your voice, feel your fingers on my skin, the brush of lips against my own. Here you smile only for me.
It is a fleeting thing, this lazy perfection, a tenuous reality that always fades far too soon, leaving me awake and alone in my bed, heart breaking for want of you.
Life leaves no room for self pity however, and soon I’ll rise and push you to the furthest corner of my mind; feelings securely under lock and key. You made your choices and all I could do was accept them with a modicum of grace. It gets easier as time passes, and most days I can get by without thinking of you at all. Until the night comes, bringing with it the pain and pleasure of that place where I can no longer keep the memories of you at bay.
In those moments before the dawn I still love you.
In that place, I always will.